Calling time

Hey,

This last week was 9 years since a school friend of mine died, it still hurts now when i think of him. He died too young at 17, not getting a chance to do so much in life. It makes me want to live every day to the full, love every moment, take chances as you never know when time will be called on your life.
There is a lovely poem i read once about not standing by my grave and weeping as I'm not there. While it was on my mind i thought I'd write my own:

Do not stand by my grave and weep for I am not there.

I have move on,

I am now somewhere else,

Doing the things i love,

Being with the people i have already lost.

I will be smiling,

As it's the best thing i can do.

Most of all i will be with you,

All who knew me,

All who's hearts i touched.

To everyone who spent time with me,

Experienced my joy,

My laugh,

The fun,

I will be in all of your hearts

Your memories...

They will never die.

The memories we made will be worth more than anything else i could of given you,

But more than you could of ever given me,

And if i gave you my time,

You meant more to me than anything.

My time was the only thing i gave for you all,

It was the only free item i had. 

I hope you've all enjoyed my time,

I'm sorry it wasn't all good,

For the perfect side of me never existed,

I was not blessed with that. 

I just tried, most of the time, 

To be the best person i could be....

I failed at times,

But learnt from my failures.

You gave me hope to succeed where others had failed,

I just wanted to give you the same hope.

Please keep me in your hearts,

As i kept you in mine...

Therefore,

Please don't stand by my grave to weep,

As I'm not there,

I'm already in your memories,

I'm already in your hearts,

Just like you were inside mine. 

 Yeah i can be quite deep at times, but my head is full of thoughts and feelings, i feel writing helps. I need to share, this is the best way i can. I hope i reach others who feel the same, sending a bit of hope to them.

Love Lolly
xoxo

Today Is Foo Fighters DAY!!

Yo!!!


Oh yeah, today is the day!! Wooop. All week has been leading to today.... I finally get to see the Foo Fighters!! Ahhhhhhhh (I'm a little excited if you can't tell) I now just need to decide what to wear (That's always the hard part).

To continue the theme I've got one last song to share with you... I love this song but it also fit Dave Grohl as he can now walk again...

A million miles away
Your signal in the distance
To whom it may concern
I think I lost my way
Getting good at starting over
Every time that I return

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
Where do I begin?

Do you remember the days
We built these paper mountains
And sat and watched them burn?
I think I found my place
Can't you feel it growing stronger?
Little conquerors

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?

Now
For the very first time
Don't you pay no mind?
Set me free again
You keep alive a moment at a time
But still inside a whisper to a riot
To sacrifice but knowing to survive
The first decline another state of mind
I'm on my knees, I'm praying for a sign
Forever, whenever
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I never wanna die
I'm on my knees
I never wanna die
I'm dancing on my grave
I'm running through the fire
Forever, whatever
I never wanna die
I never wanna leave
I'll never say goodbye
Forever, whatever
Forever, whatever

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
Where do I begin?
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?
Where do I begin?

I'm learning to walk again
I believe I've waited long enough
I'm learning to talk again
Can't you see I've waited long enough?

This song is just amazing, I'm sure i feel it in my bones, just touches something inside of me... You know when you love a song when you just have to have it in your life, this is how i feel about this song. I still remember the first time it heard it, to which i had to play it again, again and again.
I can't wait to see one of my favorite bands today. Its been too long. I just need to hear the music, to sing, laugh to dance, to enjoy. That what good music does to you. Find what you need in this world that makes you smile, the little things are always the best.

Enjoy your Sunday, I know i will enjoy mine. 

Love Lolly

xoxo

Craft days

Hey,

 I love having a day to create, and on Thursday this week i had a day off... It was well needed as i was feeling shattered after a busy fun week at work. I'm enjoying my job, but as it gets busier i felt i need a day to do not much, therefore films and crafts were the only thing on the cards. It was just what i needed... Love it.

Here's what i made:

An anniversary card for my friend which is in October.. But I thought I'd have it ready.

For my parents who on friday celebrated 33years of marriage together.

Actually made this one Tuesday morning for my little cousins birthday. 

Made a few weeks back for a friend who's mum passed away. 

A cute birthday card.

Made a cute scrabble tile necklace... This was the first one I made, then decided to make more. 

Not quite sure who they are for yet.. 

This one is for me though ☺️

Then made this, which has my initial on it... Something no one else will have. 

I love creating pretty bits, might give some of these as presents... I just wanna make more.

Enjoy your weekend, 

Love lolly

xoxo

Only one day till Foo Fighters

Heyyyyyy,

Tomorrow is the day I'm waiting for... finally getting to see the Foo Fighters after it feels like waiting year to see them again (Well it has been years) For some people they are seeing them today at Milton Keynes Bowl. I hope the weather hold out for both days, its been a bit of a wet morning where i live which is like just under an hour from the bowl... I hope it clears up later, but no matter what you'll get to see the Foo's.
So I've got one more day to wait... Ahhhhhhh!!! I know i can make it, I just can wait to hear them play again. Music always makes me feel better, when its live its the most amazing thing ever. Hearing the band sing and play their song to you, while you and the crowd sing back to them. Its just bliss, a slice of heaven for me.

Today's song:

Run and tell all of the angels
This could take all night
Think I need a devil to help me get things right

Hook me up a new revolution
'Cause this one is a lie
We sat around laughing and watched the last one die

Now I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking 'cause I'm tired of lying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high.

I think I'm done nursing the patience
It can wait one night
I'd give it all away if you give me one last try

We'll live happily ever trapped if you just save my life
Run and tell the angels that everything's alright...

I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking 'cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high.
Make my way back home when I learn to...

...fly along with me, I can't quite make it alone
Try to make this life my own
Fly along with me, I can't quite make it alone
Try to make this life my own

I'm looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking 'cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to...

...looking to the sky to save me
Looking for a sign of life
Looking for something to help me burn out bright
I'm looking for a complication
Looking 'cause I'm tired of trying
Make my way back home when I learn to fly high.
Make my way back home when I learn to fly.
Make my way back home when I learn to...

Learn to Fly - Taken from the album There is nothing left to lose

I always sing this song loud... Just perfect in the car, i do get some strange looks at the traffic lights.
I'm so excited for tomorrow, and i get to spend it with my lovely friends too. That whats makes it perfect.



Enjoy your weekend,

Love Lolly
xoxo

Book review - The Girl On The Train

Morning,

I've been a busy bee reading some books over the summer... err well i actually read most of the time in june and july, but I'm only just getting chance now to blog about them... Sorry. I read this book back in june, I couldn't put it down, just loved the twists and turns through out the book.

To everyone else in this carriage I must look normal;

I'm doing exactly what they do: commuting to work, 

making appointments, ticking things off lists.

Just goes to show. 

I saw this book in sainsburys and heard good things about it so wanted to see what it was all about. Once i got into it, yeah i couldn't put it down. They story is told from the point of view mainly of Rachel her life isn't going to plan, from the outside she looks normal, but demons from her past stop her from moving on. The other part of the story is told from Megan, her view is from the past, she should have it all, but just doesn't feel right in the world. Rachel spends her time travelling back and forth on to London, passing some houses she dreams of the life a couple have in one of the houses, making up stories of this happy couple she see every day... When one day she can be part of that world, but not all that happens is good. Her past is only doors away. 

I don't wanna give to much away in this book as its one you need to rad to understand, but it had me trying to work out each step of these characters. Working out how each life fits with another... 

If you get chance give this book ago, its one i don't wanna tell too much about, as the twists and turns will have you asking many questions. I've heard since i read the book that its gonna be made into a film staring Emily Blunt - so you know its gonna be good.

Love Lolly

xoxo

2 days to go till.... Foo Fighters

Morning!!!

Oh yeah its Friday! Wooooopppppp.... If can't tell I'm a little excited, I'm off work this weekend after working three weekends in a row, they have been good, plus quite busy so looking forward to a chilled one tomorrow followed by the main event on Sunday *Screams with excitement*

I am a one way motorway
I'm the road that drives away
then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a white light blinding bright
burning off and on

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again


Times Like These - Taken from the Album One by One. 

I love this song, remind me each day that when something happens in life to just to pick yourself up, keep heading forward in life and try again with the next step in life. The chorus just says it as it is....
it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

No matter what happens in life, take that moment and move forward, learn from it. We all have difficult times in our lives, just don't let them hold you back from anything, from living.

See you soon Foo's!!!

Enjoy your day everyone,

Love Lolly

xoxo

Book review - Wedding Night

Evening,

This post is a little late in the day, but I'm getting it out here while i can.

Today's book is another from Sophie Kinsella, one of my favs.

What do you do when you think

your sister's about to marry 

the wrong man?

It's all gone wrong with the man Lottie thought was

Mr Right. Then out of the blue she gets a call from her 

first love. She decides it must be Fate, and rushes off to 

marry him and rekindle their sizzling Greek island romance.

Lottie's older sister can't believe she's doing something 

so crazy. No more Ms Nice Sister, she's stopping this 

marriage. Right away! And she'll go to any 

lengths to do so...

This is a fast moving fun book, telling the story of two sisters from their points of view through out the book, Fliss the older sister, knows what its like to married to the wrong man, not that she knew he was wrong at the time. She's seen her world torn apart and doesn't want the same for her baby sister. Lottie just wants a man to love her, she thought she had found that with Richard, but when he doesn't propose when she thought he would on their romantic meal out, she questions their future. Then when an ex turns up out of the blue, Lottie feels like this is what love must be like, after many years of not seeing him, she feels he's been whats missing in her life, a quick suggestion of marriage and the two are off to get hitch. Fliss isn't gonna let her sister make the same mistakes she made in life, this marriage  isn't going to last, therefore she not gonna let it get past the starting post.
A tale of two sister, both with best intentions, however you'll love the craziness of their lives, feel the same way about men they do, as well as the love only two sister can share.

I hope you enjoy it, as its another great book by Sophie Kinsella.

Love Lolly
 xoxo

3 Days Till Foo Fighters

Hello,

I'm finally having a day off from work today, its been crazy busy, but i love it! Therefore today I'm having a chill and getting all the jobs done that I've been putting off this last week. Don't worry I've still got a song to share with you, as today while I'm getting some jobs done round the house I'll be listening to Foo Fighters all day.

One of these days the ground will drop out from beneath your feet
One of these days your heart will stop and play its final beat
One of these days the clocks will stop and time won't mean a thing
One of these days their bombs will drop and silence everything

But it's alright
Yeah it's alright
I said it's alright

Easy for you to say
Your heart has never been broken
Your pride has never been stolen
Not yet not yet

One of these days
I bet your heart'll be broken
I bet your pride'll be stolen
I bet I bet I bet I bet
One of these days
One of these days

One of these days your eyes will close and pain will disappear
One of these days you will forget to hope and learn to fear


These Days - Taken from the album Wasting Light

I love this song, Always have since i first heard it. It just sparks emotions in me...



Just reminds you that life is short, nothing lasts forever... So live for today, do what you love because one day when your heart plays it final beat you won't know, no more.

Love Lolly
xoxo

ONLY 4 DAYS TILL FOO FIGHTERS

Hey,


I had a long drive yesterday with my work colleges to a store a bit further out, so what did we do to keep us up beat? Played Foo Fighters in the car!!

Breathe for me from now on 
Breathe for me when I'm gone 
Burn out beyond 
Out beyond the sun 

Will you still remember 
There behind the skies 
Walking on the embers 
Standing in their light 

The hardest part is knowing 
Everything must die 
The hardest part is waiting here 
Waiting to collide 

Burn Away - Taken from the Album One By One.

I know i'm only days away from seeing the foo fighters at MK Bowl, i can't wait! I'm going with my friend, who i know are just as excited as me!!



Enjoy your Wednesday

Love Lolly
xoxo

Only 5 days to go till Foo Fighters

Hey,

This week is a busy one for me, not just with work, but hey i love my life busy, would rather fill it with fun than do nothing, at least i can say I'm never bored! So my count down till Foo's is continuing, now only 5 days... Here's the next song:

I went down, I fell, I fell so fast
Dropping like the grains in an hourglass
Never say forever cause nothing last
Dancing with the bones of my buried past

Never mind there's nothing I can do
Bet your life there's something killing you

It's a shame we have to die my dear
No ones getting out of here, alive
This time



I do know this about life, be kind to one another, treat others as you want to be treat, i don't see the point in hate... As there is one thing for sure in this life, "No ones getting out of here, alive" - this line is the truest ever written... i think i just understand this song so much, as i do believe that you should never say forever, as nothing last, its just a feeling you have, but forever can be a life time, or just a minute... People its a feeling not a time period.

 

Love Lolly
xoxo

6 days till Foo Fighter at MK bowl

Morning!

Its bank holiday Monday today, the weather looks a bit questionable, who knows what its going to do, but I'm gonna be busy working today anyway. While I'm gonna enjoy work, I'll be looking forward to the weekend, to seeing The Foo Fighters at MK Bowl, I'm just a little excited as you may be able to tell.
I've got another song to share with you,

Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Kudos, my hero
Leaving all the best
You know my hero
The one that's on 

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary
There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary


My Hero Taken from the album The Colour and The Shape.

I think Dave is one of my hero's in life, the way he is for his fans, the whole band inspire their fans. Songs can mean so much to different people, i know i couldn't live in world without music, it can change my moos in a moment... It can bring joy, tears and remind you of moments you may of thought you had forgotten about. To everyone each song is different... I love music, I like many different types, from classic tunes from the 60's, 70's, 80's, 90's, 00's and present. I can sing a song i haven't heard in years and remember the lyrics plus with some the dance moves too! I'm listening to music as i write this, my phone on shuffle playing a song i might not of heard in a while... My perfect time is when I'm driving, It's just me in the car, with my music playing.



This quote from Dave is just so true...

Hope you all have a good week. See you Sunday Foo's!!!

Love Lolly
xoxo

One week till foo fighters

Hey,

I'm on count down till I get to see the Foo Fighters, after their gig in June got cancelled I was so excited when I heard they would be doing another gig here in the UK, plus over joyed when I found out they were playing Milton Keynes Bowl, as its close to where I live. 

I've been listening to them loads since getting these tickets, which I love replaying their songs over and over again, I'm sorry to anyone who has to listen to me sing. 

I wanted to share some of their songs with you, and if you have seen some of my post on my blog before back in June when I was counting down to their gig at Wembley I though I'd do the same again, I'm gonna share some different songs from last time.

Holding my breath I waited and waited
How'd the simple life get so complicated?
Shoes to fill, secrets to spill down you

Deer in the headlights, spoke in the wheel
You want pretend I need for real
I'm taking it back, all my IOU's

You got a lot of nerve
Now show a little backbone why don't you

Back and Forth Taken from the album Wasting Light. 

I'm glad that Dave Grohl is feeling better that he up to performing for his fans. I know loads of people going either on the saturday or the sunday, we are all so excited to hear the band, but just to rock out.

So excited for next week....

Love Lolly

xoxo

Rock on the week!! ahhhhhhhhhhh 

Feel positive

Morning,

It's a new day, and with each new day we need to start it feeling positive even if its the last thin you want. Yeah the problems of yesterday haven't gone away, but you've made it to another day, a fresh start. I'm a lover of quotes, little sayings so i thought I'd share some with you to hopefully bring a little bit of joy into your life today. 

1. Focus on what you want in life:

2. In life you might not have it all, but be thankful for everything you have, sometimes the smaller things mean the most.

 3. Its never to late in life to change, we can do it every day. Be like the butterfly.

 4. You are the only person who is you! There will never be anyone who is like you, so do just want you need to do in life. 

 

5. You can give all your time to everyone else, but the best person you can spend time with is yourself, do something today and each day that is just for you. It can be as simple as 5 minutes quiet time with a cup of tea. 

 6. We all have shit days... but look at them as see what you can learn from them. It might have been crap at the time, but if you learn from it you can make it into a positive. 

 7. I love this one... enjoy the little things in life, just do what you wanna do. 

 

 8. When the days seem dark, believe that things will change, or you make a change then you can look back and enjoy the happy times. 

 

9. When you think its end, its not. Its just the start of something new, the next amazing adventure. 

 

10. This is the truth, nothing is set in stone. Just look at the weather, it can change so quick (In the UK it does all the time). If you aren't happy start by making small changes, then you will be ready for a big change. If you don't do it you'll never know. 

 

 11. A quote from a lovely man who the world still misses loads. 

12. This is the main one in life, no matter what just "Be Present" or you could miss out on the amazing parts of life that you always wanted. 

I hope these make your day a little bit better, I know I try and use them on my days.

Love Lolly

xoxo

Getting lost in life

Heyyy,

Yep its Monday again, the start of the working week for many people. This Monday I'm lucky I've got the day off (Only as I worked all last week and needed a day off). Outside the weather is a typical British summer... Rain. Yeah, so I'm at home trying to get the million and one jobs done that I've put off the last few weeks due to work, and oh yeah the social life i love having. Today my mind is full, i just feel the need I must write. I love to read as you know if you've read my book reviews which i still need to do more. But reading has taken a bit of a back seat at the mo, I've been enjoying my job trying to get used to the change in my life, mainly get to grips with it, be the best i can be. I'm in my second month of this job, looking back, its the best move I've ever made. Change isn't always good, but you need to make the right choice in life, not all roads led to the same place. Happiness is something you create, in any situations you need to find the bad, kick it out to make something positive, that's just how I view life.
Anyway we are nearing the end of August already... where is this year going? Yep it will be Christmas before we know it. That remind me better start my shopping soon *Wink*. Today I'm taking a break, I'm watching the rain thinking of life... Am i happy? For the first time in years i can say "Yes". This doesn't mean everything in my life is just how i want it... But I'm enjoying everything i have, the people who are in my life, the places i visit, just smiling that I'm alive and living my life doing stuff i love. Yeah I don't have my own house yet. But i have a roof over my head, a place i can call home no matter what. I have my health, that more than many can say, my body is far from perfect though. Do i have a boyfriend? Nope, i haven't found one that wants to keep me, that works with me, makes me a better person or deserves my time. Yep there have been guys, ones i thought id change the world for, but won't change their world for me. Am i worried? Na, I'm in my 20's i need to enjoy being single, doing what ever i want not worrying about someone else. I can go where ever i want, (I travelled to the USA to visit a friend once, might not have done that if i was with someone). Don't get me wrong, i do want someone, one that will work with me, travel the world, fight to keep us together, enjoy this crazy life we have been given. Yeah i know it won't be easy but the best things in life aren't, that's what makes them worth while. But I'm not killing myself over anything. I love my friends, they are the people i truly care about. The late night phone calls when either of you feel down, just want to rant about crap. The people who hug you before you even say anything as they can just tell you need them, also they are the people to get to enjoy the best moments in your life. Yep, i have the most wonderful friends in the world that are perfect for me. They might not be everyone's taste, i don't care, they are mine... These are the people i give my time to, the one thing in life that we are given for free. I welcome new people into my life every day. I like to think of myself as a happy go lucky girl. I smile to everyone, say hello, even if i don't like you much. Everyone is different, I don't expect to like everyone, nor everyone to like me... Dam if they did, life would be boring. Manors are for the classy, worth more than money can ever buy, just free to give.
Overall i just felt the need to write today, one day I will write a book. Not about my life, dam i need to do something interesting for that to happen, more the stories in my head. I love reading, but writing is something i keep close to my heart, the most i share is in this blog. Yep your lucky if your reading this... or I'm sorry for your time you are using to reading this. We all need a release in life, find something we enjoy.

I'll leave you with this note: Smile... No matter what! It will make you feel stronger, there is nothing you can't face. Life is crazy. Roll with it, fight it, dam just don't lay down and take crap, its not worth your time.

This i found online is just perfect 

Love to you all,
Lolly
xoxo